Showing posts with label #wwriting. Show all posts
Showing posts with label #wwriting. Show all posts

Tuesday, May 05, 2020

Another day, but not another dollar

It's what's for supper:
White bean and roasted tomato stew


Even for a quarantine day, this one started off badly. For one thing I got up an hour earlier than I meant to and that makes for a long day. I’ve never figured out how to set the clock next to my bed, so I always have to calculate that if it says it’s 6:57, it’s really 7:57. This morning I must have misread 5:57 for 6:57. (I must get Christian of Jacob to fix that for me—Jordan can’t figure it out either.) I did think it was unusually dark outside, but I saw the patio was wet and reasoned it was cloudy.

So there I was up, reading the day’s news and mail while drinking my tea, when the eight o’clock segment of TODAY came on. Wait a minute! It should have been the third hour, the one that starts at nine. Nope, my computer confirmed that it was only eight.

Then our new neighbor decided to power wash something, presumably the large deck in his back yard. Only he didn’t have one of those hand-held power washers like we have which only spit out a small stream. He rented some kind of commercial thing that came with a separate remote generator. I left out the key adjective—it was a noisy generator. And it went on for about an hour. Annoying is the word that comes to mind.

Then I was trying to send my monthly column to Lone Star Literary Life. Took me three times before I remembered to attach the darn thing after I wrote an email. If you don’t subscribe to that, you might want to look into it. A free newsletter about Texas and books.

The good thing that happened was I discovered what I was doing wrong about Blogger.com. I thought they had changed the format, and if I’d known who to complain to, I would have. Last night I could not figure out how to post my blog. Finally, nearing midnight I gave up and went to bed. This morning, first thing, I found a link that said, “Return to conventional Blogger.” And there it was—the screen I am familiar with.

So by nine o’clock, I had posted my blog for the night before, gotten past the glitches of the early morning and had the whole day before me. So what did I do? I wasted the time. I was like Alice following all those rabbit holes. Eleven came and went, and I still hadn’t done my thousand words for the day. I won’t labor you with details, but I did finally write my words.

I also came to a conclusion. I have not been carving out enough time to read. Perhaps it’s my ongoing feeling that I must speak out about the situation in our country or maybe my relatively new obsession with writing the novel I’m working on. Then again, it may be just sheer laziness and the need to nap. At any rate, my TBR (to be read) list is growing out of bounds. I resolved to make more time. Right now I’m reading Provence 1970 by Luke Barr, nephew of food writer MFK Fisher. It is about the year when major figures in American cookery—Julia Child, MFK Fisher, Richard Olney, editor Judith Jones, James Beard, and others--came together in Provence and realized that they must turn their sights from France to America, from the old traditional to new ways with food. It was time to look at American food. I’m enjoying it, and today I’ve spent quite a bit of time reading.

And this evening, I spent time cooking a recipe I’ve wanted to try for some time, a stew of roasted tomatoes and cannelloni or white kidney beans. I ate in solitary splendor, as the Burtons had gone to a front-lawn, distanced supper with neighbors. My dinner was good—the first time I’d fixed it, and next time I’d cut back a bit on garlic and salt (both may be the problem of halving a recipe) and I might add grated Pecorino or Parmesan over the top. But It was good, and I enjoyed it. I have enough left over for lunch, and then the remains will go into the freezer for a soup pot.

So now I’m watching the second installment of the PBS special on the George W. Bush presidency. Tonight, with focus on the Iraq War, it brings up a whole lot of anger that I’d like to leave behind me.

Tuesday, July 24, 2018

Thoughts on turning eighty




I remember when my mom turned eighty. Dad had passed on by then, and Mom had moved to Fort Worth. She was active—I think that was the year she went to China with a group of women from her bank—and she was classy, a lady’s lady. We were so proud of her that we gave a small party. I remember dancing in a circle in the large entryway of our house.

Two or three years later Mom began to have those TIAs or small strokes that eventually robbed her of all her grace and dignity and ladylike charm. By eighty-five she was in a nursing home—the old-fashioned kind, not today’s assisted living with its many activities and opportunities. And at eighty-seven, she died.

I have always been afraid of eighty. But now I’m three days into it, and nothing bad has happened. I take heart from my eighty-six-year-old brother. When I talked to him yesterday morning shortly after nine, he’d already been out to move the cows to another pasture. He’d just come in for a bite of breakfast before going to clear brush (okay he has a fancy tractor kind of thing that does most of the work, but still….) He’s got good genes, that guy does, and I hope I inherited them. The women on my father’s side of the family all lived into their nineties, a precedent I intend to follow.

If nothing dramatic has happened, I do notice recent changes, mostly in attitude. At eighty, I’m not going to do things I don’t want to, just to be polite. I’ve always been quite social, rarely turning down an invitation to go out for lunch or dinner. But lately I find myself a bit less interested—my days fall into a routine that I am sometimes reluctant to break. And some evenings, like tonight, a quiet hamburger at home and a book sounds just perfect. I think tonight I’m still in recovery from my wild weekend of celebration, but I’ve stayed home and worked, in my pajamas, for two days.

I am less ambitious than I have been. All my life I’ve looked to the next accomplishment. Sort of, if this is good, what’s better? What’s next? Publish one book and be satisfied? Never. Now I’ve written over a hundred is you count the wild variety, including some work-for-hire assignments. When I turned to writing mysteries, I told myself if I just got one published, I’d be happy. When Contract for Chaos comes out in September, I will have published fourteen mysteries.

But I’m drawing back a little, not so driven to publish two books a year, a little more reluctant to jump into another book that puzzles me halfway through. I want to write something I’m passionately interested in, and so I’m taking time to explore. I still want to be active in all my online writing groups, keep up my contacts. And I won’t quit expressing both joys and concerns on Facebook. In sum, I think I’m less driven. I don’t have the feeling that every minute has to be productive. Maybe I’m finally learning to sit back and smell the roses.

I read somewhere that people over fifty should spend more time in bed. Shoot! I’ve been doing that since I retired eight years ago. A nap is a must, and I don’t let much interrupt it. I’m fortunate that I’ve come roaring back after some health crises in 2017—okay, I can’t dance like my mom did on her eightieth birthday, but the walker doesn’t slow me down much. Maybe I should practice some dance steps with it.

It’s a good feeling. I think I like eighty just fine.