The serious golfer on a Sunday morning |
Jordan
and Christian hosted a dinner party last night, and I was invited! Only two
guests, both of whom Jordan knows are following the quarantine rules though one
goes to an office. Best of all she knows they are two of her friends I’m most
fond of—Amye Cole, who went to high school with her, and David Barnes, her “brother
from another mother.” I had seen Amye once when we were at the lake but have
not seen David since quarantine began. Missed his wife, Kelly, who was out of
town.
We
began with drinks on the patio, but the mosquitoes were fierce. Jordan had even
done what I frown on and sprayed Yard Guard. Temperature was pleasant, but we
soon headed inside. We talked a lot about food and a lot about dogs and skirted
politics. One of the guests is Republican, though I suspect not a trumpian Republican.
Still we avoided the issue until I got up to leave and Christian said, “I
thought we were going to have a hot political discussion.”
Jordan
planned with quarantine in mind—she put enough leaves in my old dining table to
make it so long that it barely fit inside the dining room. David and Amye sat
at the far end, while I was in my familiar place at the end near the kitchen. A
nostalgic moment for me, because I’ve sat in that chair and presided over
countless company dinners—close enough that I could run to the kitchen if
necessary, back when I could run. Jordan calls it my “princess chair.”
Jordan
fixed a family favorite. We call it Doris’ casserole, but I have friends who
call it American lasagna. It’s a meat and tomato layer topped by noodles, cream
cheese, sour cream, and chopped green onions. Then you top the whole thing with
grated cheddar and bake. We serve it so often that I knew both Amye and David
have had it before. In fact, David asked, “Tell me again how you knew Doris.” But
it’s always wonderful—and there are leftovers for tonight. Accompanied by a
green salad and brownies for dessert. I
was still full when I woke up this morning.
I am a
Zoom failure. I tried to join the after-church Zoom discussion this morning,
but I was sideways on the screen and didn’t know how to turn it. I didn’t try
the audio because what I thought was to
be a church discussion was several people talking about Santa Fe. It was a bit
hard to just jump in. I have to master this, though, because I am to be on a
virtual panel at a book festival in early October. That makes two tech failures
on my part—I still haven’t been able to untangle my Instagram account and use
it.
Thinking
and praying today for friends and a family member in California and up the
coast. I truly cannot wrap my mind around the extent and size of those fires. Someone
posted a picture of a small Oregon town that burned completely down—no more
town. Just gone.
Len
Leatherwood, a California writer and friend, recently posted a poem, “Curled
Up,” in which she expressed a feeling of being curled up, protecting her inner self
while watching a world that she distrusts. Waiting for the time that she can
uncurl, for a sign that it is safe to come out and live again. She caught my feelings
perfectly—these days I feel like I am watching life but not really a part of it,
and I’m waiting until I can once again pick up the threads of a life now gone.
This
morning, as we recited the Lord’s Prayer in our virtual prayer service, my mind
clamped onto the phrase, “Deliver us from evil.” I guess that’ too is how I feel—that
so much evil surrounds us. Disease and fire and riots and a scary election.
Yes, Lord, please deliver us so that we can uncurl and live lives filled with
love, not fear and anger and hate.
Sleeping in the sun |
No comments:
Post a Comment