Like the buildup
to Christmas and other major holidays, the run-up to Halloween is too long and protracted
–all those cooking shows and ads and store displays and then, poof! It’s over.
At least that’s how I felt about it this year. We anticipated the event with hamburgers
and pumpkin carving—about ten of us. And I ended the evening at my desk with
two carved pumpkins glowing at me from the deck. I notice tonight that they’re
gone—presumably to the front porch.
Yesterday, the
day, I was isolated from the festivities, including the approximately 1300
children who came trick or treating. My cottage proved ideal—no one found it to
trick or treat except grown girls who came begging a glass of wine. And I was
back here in solitary quiet, enjoying it.
I am not usually
such a curmudgeon. Usually go to Jay and Susan’s for a bowl of stew and to
watch them hand out treats. No kidding—we get about 1300 tricksters on our block.
Most are small, sweet, and oh so polite. In the next block over, Medstar brings
handicapped children and allows them a rare chance to participate. I’m proud to
live in a neighborhood that welcomes so many and such diverse children.
But last night I
was not myself. All day I had noticed that I tended to fall asleep over the
keyboard—in fact, I had noticed it a few mornings during last week and of
course my brain immediately went to brain tumor. When Jordan said to me last
night that I looked like I was about to fall asleep, I said that was because
that was how I felt. She suggested—being oh so reasonable—that perhaps I was
overtired. Since I slept 10.5 hours last night I suspect she was right. I still
fell asleep a bit this morning but nothing like yesterday. Maybe cumulative tired, like six months of
it, has caught up with me.
But now it’s over,
and I think we can settle down to a few peaceful days—If Jordan doesn’t invite
half the world for another function which she has yet to dream up. I am not
falling asleep over the keyboard but I am weary tonight.
I did wish at 3
a..m. this morning I’d had my camera at hand. I was in bed, thinking those
black three-o’clock-in-the-morning thoughts about things that didn’t really
need to be worried about. I decided to go to the restroom to sort of break the
cycle, but I forgot to turn on the bedside light. When I came back I could
barely make out that there was something large, black, and rumpled in the
doorway between the bedroom and kitchen. Sophie never bothers towels, but that
was what it looked like. As I inched toward the light, half of mass moved
several feet. Sophie had gotten her color caught in the afghan that covers her
chair and was doomed to drag the blanket with her wherever she went. She gave
me the most pitiful look that said, “Help me, please” I scooted into the
kitchen, got scissors and freed her.
It was one of life’s
little lessons—don’t fret and stew over things that are not here yet, if ever,
but help your dog. Priorities.
1 comment:
Yes!, I had those symptoms and it turned out it was a brain tumor (cancerous). I was given only three months to live. I died on Halloween 2016, but have returned to callously place afghans on top of dogs.
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