I did one of the hardest things I’ve ever done today.
I surrendered my dog, Luke, to the Humane Society of North Texas. I always hated seeing the words “Owner surrender.” Dogs
are part of your family, and you just don’t walk away from them, but here I was
today, calling belatedly, “I love you, Luke” as he was led away.
I had Luke five weeks to the day. He’s probably a
Bernese Mountain Dog/Aussie/Border Collie mix, a year and a half to two years
old, up to date on shots and neutered (thanks to me), heartworm positive (we
hadn’t gotten to the treatment yet). More important, he was full of love for
the people he adored (including me) and he was so happy—played beautifully with
Sophie, my border collie/poodle cross. Lived the good life for the last five weeks, before which
he was a stray and then in a shelter. An escape artist, he’d get out of the
back yard only to come to the front door and say, “Let me in.” He lived up to the Aussie moniker of "Wigglebutt"--his whole rear end would wriggle with happiness at the thought of coming in the house.
I thought today I’d be
writing a plea for a new home for Luke—a home, preferably in the country, with
no children and few if any guests. Full disclosure: Luke is a biter. It’s
indiscriminate and unpredictable, and in five weeks we had five incidents. He
seemed to dislike children, young people, and men (except for a few) but we
never could tell when he would react with a snarl and a snap. We learned to
restrain him but dog trainers advised me to get rid of him. I live with an
eight-year-old here every afternoon, and I entertain often so there are people
in and out of my house a lot—if for nothing else but happy hour. Mine is the
wrong house for Luke.
I am heartbroken at
putting down a young, healthy (heartworms can be cured), vital, energetic and
loving dog. Yes, I’ve done it with dogs that were old and/or sick. But Luke
enjoyed life so much, had so much love to give and receive.
RIP Luke. Look for me on
the Rainbow Bridge someday. I loved you as much as you loved me, and I will
miss you. You will always have a corner of my heart.
7 comments:
Oh, Judy, my heart aches for you. I know how much you wanted and loved this dog. You obviously love all dogs, and this one especially. Please know that everyone who knows you--or even just your writing--is grieving with you.
Thanks, Anonymous. I wish I knew who you were so I could thank you personally. Your comment means a lot.
Judy, sometimes the right thing is also the hard thing. You gave him a great five weeks--more than most people would have done.
Thanks, Terry. Knowing that he was so happy here is both a comfort and a sad thought.
Aww, Judy. I'm so sorry. You would feel a lot worse if Luke had seriously hurt someone. Some traits are instinctive in certain animals, and there's nothing you can do to change that. You did the right thing for those you love. But I certainly know how you feel.
Judy, we knew each other many years ago in Fort Worth when I was director at Thistle Hill. I do wish you had been able to find Luke a home - five weeks is a very short time for an Aussie to learn your ways, or for you to learn his. We only started having Aussies 2 years ago, they are a wonderfully smart and loving breed, and if you are familiar with them, they want to please, and they would do anything for you. I know several who would have gladly taken him. You might take his photo down,he looks like our black tri, and it is heartbreaking to think he is gone.
Carla, of course I remember you. Thanks for couching your note in much kinder tones than some. I do know Aussies, have had them before. We're not sure Luke was Aussie--vet thinks Bernese Mountain Dog. I know Aussies and other dogs nip--Luke bit me often, love nips--but he also lunged snarling at strangers unpredictably. He would have done anything for me, but I could not take the moral or financial responsibility. I did what I did on the advice of two trainers and my vet. thanks for understanding that grief that continues to overwhelm me.
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