Wednesday, August 30, 2017

Joel Osteen and fake news




A lovely, sunny day in North Texas, temperatures in the 80s, humidity blessedly low. Hard to think that rain is still falling in parts of southeast Texas, and water is still receding only slowly, if at all. So easy to breathe a sigh of relief, but that would be premature. And easy to be grateful Harvey has moved east, but that’s a bad kind of gratitude, since it just wishes the misery on others who are now suffering. Port Arthur is apparently under water, and I hear remnants of the weakening storm may make it up to western Kentucky. Harvey’s dubious place in American history is little consolation.

I did it. I fell for fake news about Joel Osteen and his luxury yacht. I shared a post that was fake, but let me hasten to add that I didn’t realize it was a share button until I hit it. And it was a reflexive action, based I admit on an unworthy but intense dislike of televangelists and the new megachurches. I have since personally apologized to my daughter-in-law, who corrected me and asked me to take the post down. I have done that. She pointed out, rightfully, that the last thing Houston needs right now is inflammatory fake news.

And Osteen has borne the brunt of a lot of fake news, claiming that he refused to open the doors of his megachurch to the homeless. Truth apparently is that the building was flooded and not safe for people. Osteen claims he has worked with the city of Houston which has a shelter nearby and asked his church to serve as a distribution center for supplies. Some people are disputing this, arguing that the sudden drying out of the church is suspicious. I’m not going to judge, but I’m not going to share any more posts about Osteen. I feel guilty, gullible that I fell for fake news, but I am still the opposite of whatever a believer in the megachurches is. Not what Jesus would do.

Wrote my thousand words today. Funny, but this morning by the time I had shampooed showered, and done my walking exercise, I felt I had conquered the day. I hadn’t of course. Walking was better today but it was less humid, and Teddy as usual reassured me. He pointed out that yesterday I had a lot of drainage from the dental appointment, and that was bound to affect my lungs. He didn’t have a stethoscope, but he “listened” to my lungs with his hands, took my pulse, and pronounced me in good health. I believe him and am almost ready to cancel tomorrow’s appointment, but Jordan thought I was wheezing this morning when I got out of the shower. She even cautioned Christian to “listen” to me. So I’m going to let someone with a stethoscope listen and reassure me.

Teddy had all these reasons for my shortness of breath—dentist, my lack of stamina, humidity. I told him there was yet another dimension, and he asked what. I couldn’t pull up the exact words I wanted, from author Babette Hale, but it’s enough to say that authors of fiction have great imaginations. Teddy collapsed in laughter. I once dated a guy who used to say to me, “Go on, bring that bridge right on up here, so you can jump it.” Function of the same thing—an overactive imagination.

Nice dinner tonight with Betty and Jacob. Well, Betty and I had a good time. Jacob was sunk in a corner of the booth, hat pulled over his head (he knows how I feel about hats at the dinner table), face in his iPhone. He managed to thank the waiter politely and respond to his Aunt Betty’s questions, but he was pretty much non-communicative. Just when I thought I’d seen budding signs of maturity. Be patient, Grandma Juju, be patient. It will come. He’s basically a sweet boy.


















Tuesday, August 29, 2017

The dentist, flood news, and good friends




KIds, big and little, are finding some joy in the midst of
closed schools and offices and even flood waters
Not my best day. Two hours at the dentist this morning. No gory details, but one tiny filling that I thought was no big deal took an hour and while not painful was hard on my nerves. Second hour was deep cleaning, and not as bad. As I suspected though, they didn’t get it all done, and I have to go back to have the left side of my mouth cleaned. Should be much easier. As a survivor of dentistry in the ‘40s, when I was young and had lots of cavities and techniques and the drill were pretty old-fashioned, I am a dental phobic. I thought I was pretty calm about hip surgery, but this morning I felt like my heart was going to pound right out of my chest.

Pretty day here, pleasant temperatures, but still humid. When I walked with Teddy, I was breathless. Teddy, always encouraging, said you can’t expect to be at your best after a long dental appointment. It saps your energy.

Not much work done today—again! After the dentist, I needed a nap; then walking. Then Subie and Phil came for happy hour. Sophie was so demanding that we locked her outside; of course, Phil's seeing-eye dog wanted to go too, but both dogs stood at the door, looking pitiful in exile.
Pitiful exiled dogs
When Subie and Phil left; they crossed paths with Mary Dulle who came for the second shift happy hour. She’s been gone much of the summer, so it was good to visit with her. I can’t complain about nobody visiting me in the cottage!

Still watching flood news with one eye. A family Colin and Lisa are close to was finally able to leave their house today and is safe. Various rumors about evacuations in Sugar Land, where Lisa’s parents are. Missed the news tonight, due to extreme sociability, so I’m not sure if it’s raining or not. Last I heard rain was heavy but moving slightly eastward.

It would be easy to sigh and think it’s over, the storm is moving on. But of course that’s foolish thinking. The storm will not be gone for those affected for months, years. I finally decided where to make my first donations—made modest contribution to the food bank here in North Texas, because Fort Worth is going to get a lot of evacuees, and sent a second donation to the animal shelter in Conroe, where my kids got their dog. I figure they were boots on the ground. The news is confusing—some posts list goods that are needed; others say, don’t send goods, send money. I think this weekend we’ll try to get together a care package. Christian’s office is collecting items needed at local shelters.

Sleep tight, stay dry and safe, and pray for those being evacuated, those still stranded, those whose lives have been shattered.


Living in the other part of Texas




For many of us living in North Texas, it’s easy to feel irrelevant these days. The nation’s attention, indeed the world’s attention, is rightfully focused on the monumental tragedy unfolding in southeast Texas—loss of life, devastation of entire towns, a disastrous economic future for an area heavy reliant on tourism, irreparable damage to the infrastructure. Most of us in North Texas have now convinced family and friends that we are not in danger, that Houston is a long way from the Metroplex. So we sit, watch TV, wring our hands, and wonder what we can do.

Donations are welcome by more agencies than we can count. Probably most are legitimate, but there are scams by people willing to turn a tragedy to their own personal profit. Pretty scary. We’re safe to go with the “biggies”—the Red Cross or the Salvation Army, but I am leery of what percentage of donations to the first actually go to help victims and, with the second, can you earmark the money for Houston? There are parts of the work of the Salvation Army I don’t particularly want to support.

Personally, I’m thinking of a donation to an animal rescue agency. One of the most pitiful pictures I saw was a dog that had been chained to a tree, ostensibly so it wouldn’t wander away. Only its head was above water and, given the steady rise, it would soon drown (that there was a photographer there means the dog was rescued).

If tragedy brings out the worst in a few of us, it brings out the best in most. Countless pictures show volunteers rescuing people. One video that particularly struck me showed a man crying as he helped rescue an elderly resident of Dickinson from waist-deep water in his home. The elderly man was so frail he had to be hoisted into the rescue truck.

I’ve heard of people hitching up their boats and heading to Houston to be part of the rescue effort, which is admirable but I’m not sure Houston authorities want or are ready for a lot of untrained volunteers. Who would coordinate? It’s the opposite of the evacuation problem—instead of getting people out of Houston, the rescue effort might add them.

Ah, evacuation. Lots of hindsight authorities want to know why a mass evacuation wasn’t ordered? Think of the logistics of emptying a city of two-and-a-half millionousthous

, and remember the exodus under the threat of Hurricane Rita. I believe over a hundred died on the road—accidents, heat exhaustion, stalled cars, etc. We trust that those in charge studied the situation and made the best decisions they couold.

Kudos to my daughter-in-law, Melanie in Frisco. She is organizing a work day for the entire staff of her company. They will sort and package supplies for shipment to the Houston area from a local shelter. That’s called putting your money where your mouth is.

This whole tragedy has one major positive element, just as the Charlottesville riot did: Americans have demonstrated that we are a caring, loving people, that we can come together when needed. A lot of forces are working to divide us into various groups usually motivated by hate. The tragedy of Harvey unites us because we very much care about our fellow man.

If, like me, you can do no more than send a check, please do it today and be as generous as you can.

Sunday, August 27, 2017

A day of waiting and watching




Whatever else I’ve been doing today—and I’ve been busy—I have kept one eye on the TV and on my cell phone for text messages. My Tomball daughter-in-law is good about texting and posting notices, so I’ve seen videos of the creeping lake level at their house, notices of school closing for the coming week (Jacob will be so jealous), reports of assorted family in Houston.

Everyone seems safe, if not particularly comfortable. Lisa reports the rain just doesn’t quit. Her parents, in Sugar Land, have been fortunate so far. Her brother lives in a block where there have been helicopter evacuations, though his house, as of this morning, remained dry. A sort-of in-law called rescue with six inches of water in the house and was told to stay put. Rescue teams were focused on life-threatening emergencies.

The pictures of the whole area are devastating. Saddest one I saw showed nursing home residents in the badly hit town of Dickinson, sitting in waist-deep water as they waited for rescue, which apparently came shortly after the picture. FEMA authorities say they will be in the area for years. And it’s not over yet—rain at least through Wednesday. Think how dirty that flood water is. When I see pictures of people wading in it, I shudder, thinking of snakes and who knows what else. You could trip on a loose brick and plunge face-first into that nastiness.

Austin is also getting pounded. My son-in-law reported last night that after a day of normal rain the storm really hit last night, and Megan said this morning that the worst was yet to come. I haven’t heard from them all day and am waiting for a report. My nephew and his family were in El Paso to visit his grandfather, and their flight back was cancelled. They are apparently driving from El Paso to Austin. Not sure what kind of weather they’ll hit as they near Austin, but who would want to make that drive with four kids? I’m waiting to hear about them too.

Meanwhile in Fort Worth, we have drizzle, sprinkles, and sometimes a slow steady rain. The ground in our back yard is so saturated that water accumulates and moves on to the patio quickly. A good thing: it’s been a good weekend for reading and napping—I slept so hard this afternoon that it was hard for me to come back to reality.

We had a super special dinner tonight. Christian grilled really good steaks, and he knows how to grill it just the way I like it. Very pink in the middle. I saved half mine for lunch tomorrow—cold steak is one of life’s great treats to me. Tonight, we had potatoes and salad with the meat. A true luxury, and I’m full and sleepy again.

I have taken a two-day vacation from my novel in progress, so tomorrow I get back to it, plus I have guest blogs to send off. They’re written but need that final proofing and tweaking. So it’s back to work as usual. I’ve enjoyed the lazy weekend, but I’ll be glad to get back to my routine.

Hope everyone is dry and safe. Prayers for those who were caught by this monster storm.

Saturday, August 26, 2017

Rain, food, and things I didn’t sign on for as a mother




One of those almost-rainy, dull Saturdays when you stay home alone all day and try not to feel sorry for yourself. My solution was to read, and I spent much of the day finishing The Velveteen Daughter, which I am to review for Story Circle Network. I even roughed out the review. But that historical novel is not light reading and didn’t do much to lighten my mood

My kids are in their forties, and I should not be worrying about them. But I am. One is periodically hiding in a closet with his family in Tomball because they get one tornado warning after another. Spinoffs from Hurricane Harvey. Another in Austin said this morning it’s just an ordinary rainstorm, but I’m afraid she’s in for a rude awakening. The third is with his family in Boulder, delivering the oldest daughter to college—surely a bittersweet moment for that close family. And the local one? She woke with a splitting sinus headache. I guess Harvey gets all of us one way or another, though we’ve had only one brief sprinkle of rain.

I did keep one eye on the TV (with the sound muted) for hurricane reports and watched the national news avidly. The devastation from landfall is awful, but they say the worst is yet to come—flooding over the next few days as Harvey lingers almost in place and dumps inches and inches of rain. I think of the Tomball kids again, with a stable next door that becomes a sea of mud, with a lot of horse poop in it. And the snakes that may come sliding out of their small lake. Of course, being a mother, my mind can go quickly to the worst-case scenario, for which Colin would scorn me.

Cooking always brightens my day, so I made myself a new recipe for supper. A baked egg on a bed of toast, spinach, crumbled bacon, and thin slices of cheese. Think of it--all the food groups at once. Drizzled a little cream over the top because the original recipe said to do that, but I’m not sure what good it did. With a single burner kitchen, I had to cook dinner in several steps—make the toast, sauté the bacon that I’d already diced rather than trying to crumble after it cooked—that doesn’t work well for me because bacon doesn’t cook evenly. Then I sautéed the spinach ever so quickly in a tiny bit of bacon grease, and assembled the whole thing in a ramekin. I had to finish with the hot plate before I could turn on the toaster-oven to heat 400, but that gave me time to do some dishes and put away food. When the oven was 400, I put my dinner in for 15 minutes—perfection! The egg white was set nicely but the yolk still runny.

If I ever do a cookbook I will emphasize that some of the recipes must be done with a love of cooking, because they are neither quick nor easy. But for me it was fun, and the result was scrumptious. I had found a recipe, but the cheese was my addition, as was the substitution of a half slice of sourdough toast, well buttered, for an English muffin. And I had to reduce the recipe to serve one instead of four, but by now that’s old hat.

Now what to do with the rest of my evening? Read, that’s what. When I was deep in the review book, which did call me back with a siren call, I occasionally felt I had to escape from that intense world to a cozy mystery. Now I’m free to read that cozy without interruption.

Friday, August 25, 2017

Hurricanes and not much else


This is me, checking in to say I have nothing to say. A pleasant but not essentially outstanding day. We got our daily dose of rain this morning, but it was light and didn’t last long. Teddy and I walked, and since the weather was cooler, I did better, but everything makes me breathless. The cure of course is to keep doing it, until I build up my endurance again. After I took a shower this afternoon, Jordan asked why I was out of breath, and all I could say was exertion. I didn’t even realize I was a bit breathless. I don’t think the house exercises I do make me out of breath, but I’ll start paying more attention.

My most unusual accomplishment for the day: have you ever tried mopping a floor while seated in a Rollator (rolling walker, which you are not supposed to sit in while it’s moving, but I do). I can’t mop the floor with the wet Swiffer pads—they have chemicals not good for my wood floors. Felt very clever when I dampened paper towels, attached them to the Swiffer mop, and got up all those muddy paw prints. Half an hour later, there were more prints, not as pronounced, but still mud. With this rain, Sophie brings half the outdoors inside. My newly cleaned rug is filthy. Need to get that ground cover in place.

Nice lunch with friend Jean today. We wanted to go to Carshon’s but were running late and there was no parking by the time we got there—which meant the restaurant would be crowded and noisy. We went to Chadra and had salads—gyro for me and chicken for Jean. Both outstanding.

Tonight, Jordan and I walked again—nice breeze. And I have written my daily thousand words. Could have gone farther, but I’m finding it best to stop there. It’s respectable progress, and I have a review book to keep reading. I had occasion to be specific about forensic findings at the scene of a shooting, so I consulted Fred, who was helpful as always. You’d think I could keep .38 caliber weapons and the difference between automatic and semi-automatic in my head from book to book, but apparently not. I decided the forensic team found a wad of chewed up gum someone had spit out—phew!

Of course, tonight all eyes are on Harvey as the storm roars ashore around Aransas Pass and Rockport. Several kind friends from across the country have emailed to check on me, and I’m glad to tell them all we may get out of it is some rain, though we have been warned to gas up cars in case supply from Houston is compromised. Two of my kids are in the heavy rain and storm belt—Colin in Tomball, and Megan in Austin. I’m hoping they check in fairly frequently, though this storm is supposed to be around for a very long week. Praying for people in its path. It’s a monster.

But even in storms there’s levity. I saw something on Facebook that was so typically Texan it made me laugh out loud. It was a map of the expected landfall, with wording to the effect, ‘You think that eclipse was something? Here, hold my beer and watch this shit.” (Pardon the profanity, but I bet it made you laugh.)

My other favorite from Facebook for the week: a redneck saying, “You mean the moon is going to cover the sun? Thanks, Obama!”

Over and out. Happy Friday, everyone.

Thursday, August 24, 2017

Radio star—not!, grocery store, and more rain




Clearly, I am not meant to be a star of talk radio. I had two interviews scheduled this week, and both fizzled. The first was with a station in Ocala, Florida, at 10:10 in the morning. I was to call in a little before that. I was geared up for it, watching the clock—and then I got an email from the publicist who arranged it. They were waiting for me, wondering what happened. I had forgotten about the time difference. I should have called at 9:10.

When I did call they kindly said they’d put me in the second half hour if I’d hold for a few minutes. Of course, I agreed. But when we got on the air, there was so much static at their end I couldn’t understand them. Most of the interview consisted of me saying, “Pardon me?” or “Would you repeat that?” It was an agonizingly long ten minutes, and I think maybe I got in one or two good answers.

This afternoon I was to have a two-hour interview with a host named Barbara. I’ve been on Barbara’s show before, and I kept trying to remember if she gave potty breaks or not. I was remembering a friend who was to have a two-and-a-half-hour video for a job interview and told me she had severely curtailed fluid intake that morning. There’d been an email a week ago from someone named Barbara cancelling a show, but PJ, the publicist, said that was a different deal. This one was still on. Minutes before the allotted time, I found out this is the one that cancelled. I was all geared up for nothing. PJ said it was the fourth radio interview she’d scheduled this week that fizzled, and we decided it was either the eclipse or a spot on the moon.

And it’s been a rainy day. Last night Jordan said if it was pouring rain this morning, she’d go to the grocery with my list and not try to get me out. So I prepared myself for not getting out, didn’t jump out of bed and wash my hair, lazed about breakfast. And it wasn’t raining. She came to say we’d go at nine. I decided I really wanted to go. Grocery shopping not only gets me out of the house, it allows me to choose my own groceries, and I love that. So, not looking my best, I went to the bank—what I wanted in the safe deposit wasn’t there—and the grocery and the lunch take-out place. High point of the day.And the high point of the day was that I walked into the grocery on Jordan's arm, walking like a normal person. I felt like my legs were working well. Now it's my breathing that I worry about, but I am assured that is conditioning, complicated by the humidity I just need to keep walking.

We had another thunderstorm late this afternoon, the kind I thoroughly enjoy except for that one clap of thunder that was directly overhead and set Sophie to barking furiously. Wish I knew went on in that little brain that she thinks barking at thunder is effective. I love storms (without tornadic winds, of course). As a child in the Indiana Dunes, I used to watch them roll down the whole long length of Lake Michigan, and I was reminded again today of my brother’s words that our mother actively encouraged us to like storms.

My own personal moral of the day: you can’t win them all.

Wednesday, August 23, 2017

Dealing with the dog



Sophie, at her leisure, in what she
considers her rightful spot.
You think she might be spoiled?

Sophie, my sweet Sophie who only minds me when it suits her, has developed a new bad habit. She does not like people to visit with me, particularly at happy hour, though she was in fine fettle the other day when a friend came for lunch.

She barks incessantly, and the consensus is that she doesn’t want to share my attention. It probably is, as many have suggested, a case of being spoiled and wanting attention. Last night I tried everything—a treat quieted her until she finished it, and then she started again. Jeannie loved on her, even invited her up to her lap. I loved on her. She’d be quiet for a bit, and then she’d bark again, directly at me. I don’t believe in hitting dogs, but I smacked her lightly on the nose. No result. I tricked her into going outside and closed the door. She bounced against the door until I was afraid she’d bring down my magnetic screens. This is one determined dog. Jeannie suggested it’s the border collie in her—she was herding us, wanting us to do what she wanted.

Today it occurred to me that she might have been hungry, because she did bark after Jeannie left. So tonight, I fed her early. She sniffed and turned away, with a look that clearly said, “You want me to eat now?” Tomorrow I think I’ll feed her just a bit in the morning and then cut her evening rations.

Of course, to test that, I need another happy hour guest. Any volunteers?

Rainy this morning, with thunder. Found myself in bed with a needy dog, and I lingered late again. When you don’t get up until eight, the morning isn’t very long. And the rain made me less anxious to get serious about work. I fiddled with email and Facebook and other distractions until Teddy came to walk and declared it too slippery to do the driveway. We walked the path to the gate twice, and I was out of breath—not winded, but out of breath.

Lunch fare of the day: Buffalo eggs. I pickled some eggs and then deviled them with a bit of blue cheese, parsley, celery, and mayonnaise. Since neither Jordan nor I are Tabasco fans, I left that out. Really good. That and the remnants of the pasta salad I made over the weekend added up to a good, light lunch.

After lunch I got serious and wrote my thousand words for the day. Plus in the afternoon I made progress on the book I’m reading to review.

Tonight, Betty and I went to Pacific Table and split trout almandine—so good.

Tomorrow, more rain. Who can believe. Outside tonight it’s already in the seventies. Not sure I’m in Texas.




Tuesday, August 22, 2017

Taking stock—how happy are you?


A three-a.m. spell of wakefulness inspired me to do a little self-inventory. The results surprised me, and you might find the same.

Where I live. Fort Worth gets a big thumbs-up sign from me. I’m over that conviction I was meant to live in Santa Fe, and I’m realist enough to know that life in a Scottish village is a pipe dream. Oh, I’d change Texas politics in a heartbeat, and I might modify the weather a bit. But there’s no place I’d rather live. Part of it of course has to do with proximity of family, but I love our city—and our state, for all its warts. The history still thrills me.

What do you do every day? So many of us work at jobs that are not our dream jobs. We labor for the paycheck, without the joy of doing something special. I am so fortunate that when I worked, for thirty years my job revolved around things I like best—books and writing. Now in retirement, I get to write every day, and I love it. I was thinking this morning that the happiest part of the day for me is when I turn on the computer, cup of hot tea at my elbow, and start the day with email. Do I want to be Joyce Carol Oates--too much angst. Danielle Steele--all hat and no cattle. A best-selling mystery novelist with a multiple-book contract with a major house? Nah. I’ve read enough about the pressure of deadlines and sales numbers and the like. I’ll bobble along at my own little low mid-list rate, with its occasional moments of high celebration (come to my signing party September 21—it will be a moment of high celebration or me).

What about living alone? In spite of frequent visits each day from Jordan and a few from Jacob (last night he convinced me to sign up for Instagram and now I have to figure out what to do with it), living alone is fine, but it’s not my first choice. My dream would be to share my days with the love of my life (heart partner is such an awkward term). There have been a couple of candidates over the years, and I miss those men yet, but for various reasons things didn’t work out. I’m fairly philosophical about it, certainly glad I didn’t settle for lesser alternatives. Maybe a life of bliss is just another pipe dream.

I do have Sophie, the perfect dog, for companionship, and she’s good at her job. Is she the perfect dog? Of course not. She’s willful and spoiled and sometimes crazy with excitement. But she’s perfect for me. (Couldn’t resist that sly plug for my new book, Pigface and the Perfect Dog.)

And then there’s family. I couldn’t, wouldn’t ask for a different family in any way. Oh sure, I wish they’d call and visit more often. I wish this one wasn’t so busy and that one wasn’t so driven and yet another didn’t have sensitive issues I blunder into unknowingly and…wait! They’re already trying to identify themselves, and I won’t go there. I am blessed with an almost perfect family, and I daily ask the Lord to wrap them in his arms and throw his white light of protection over them.

In sum, I’m a fairly happy person. I hope you are too. Here’s my wish for you: may your life be full of joy and laughter and just enough tears for balance. May you eat well and sleep soundly. And that old Gaelic blessing I love: may the road rise to meet you.




















Monday, August 21, 2017

Was the eclipse a jinx?




Eclipse be darned. The important thing around here is that it was Jacob’s first day at middle school. Looks ready to take on the world to me.

The consensus in the Alter/Burton household is that, in Texas, the eclipse as pretty much a bust. Jacob and his classmates were issued glasses and ushered outside, appropriately during science class, but he said it was one of the most boring things he’s ever done—ah, young exaggeration. Jordan and friends went to a restaurant with a patio, and she said she should have stayed home and worked, but she’d have felt she missed something if she didn’t go look. A friend came for lunch with me, and we kept looking outside but really didn’t see much darkening. Apparently, Texas only had 70% whatever that means.

I’ve seen places in the central path where it got dark, and from reports of people who were in Oregon, Wyoming, Carbondale (IL), it was an awesome experience. All it meant here, far as I could tell, was a jinx. I had a lot of work on my desk, but everything I touched turned to mush. I was trying to put together the neighborhood newsletter, but files acted funny, others were formatted in ways that made them so difficult to deal with I threw my hands in the air.

I had to straighten out an insurance matter and none of the options on the automated menu covered it. The robot on the other end didn’t understand what I was saying. So I went online and tried the ”chat” option but when I tried to respond it froze. Finally, with help from the broker who arranged the insurance (through TCU) I got a real person at the insurance company. Of course, it turned out that I really did owe that overdue payment I was challenging.

Then I tackled the problem of an eye exam. My insurance doesn’t pay my doctor of 30 years because he’s an ophthalmologist—that comes under medical, so I have to go to an optometrist. It took literally a half hour on the phone to get the name of the area optometrist my doctor recommends.

Anybody want to calculate the amount of time I spent on the phone, mostly on hold? I don’t even want to think about it.

One bright spot: Teddy came and walked with me. I determined to be confident and to take it slow. Thought I did really well. Pleased with myself, and he, eternal cheerleader, was complimentary.

Tonight the world looks a bit better. I finished all of the newsletter I can do with what I have on hand—waiting for late submissions. I got the medical insurance straightened out, and a mammogram appointment made, with a note on the calendar to schedule an optometrist appointment (got to space those appointments out). I finished the mystery I was reading. No work on my own novel today, but that was pretty much a given.

Whoosh. I deserve wine and supper.