Monday, May 11, 2020

A Mother’s Day surprise and thoughts on a pandemic




Had a special treat last night. A neighbor family came to serenade me for Mother’s Day. Prudence Zavala told me it is a custom in the Mexican community. Standing at a good distance in the driveway (now a basketball court), the dad strummed a guitarron, a large base instrument of Hispanic origin; one daughter had a vilhuela,a Spanish stringed instrument shaped like a guitar but tuned like a lute--Prudence called it a rhythmic guitar,  and the other daughter was on a violin. Mom took pictures, while two younger children danced and jigged in the background, giving their own spontaneous performance. It was absolutely delightful. Jordan and I watched from the doorway of my cottage, and I was so flattered they wanted to do it.


After a long weekend with no attention to my novel, I was back to work this morning. For me, it was a long workday—you can tell nine to five is not on my horizon. But I proofed my spring newsletter (if you want to read it, email me at j.alter@tcu.edu), checked the world’s goings on in the news, on Facebook, my email, including two listservs to which I belong. All that takes a long time, so it was eleven before I started on the novel, but I got my thousand words (my minimum goal) and ended at a good spot to both end a chapter and take the action in a new direction.

About three I was ready for a nap. Just crawled into bed when the yard guys arrived, which sends Sophie into a hysterical fit of barking. I have learned that no amount of chastising, shouting, or pleading will quiet her, so I just waited it out for a long fifteen or twenty minutes. And then they were gone. I fell into a surprisingly deep and long sleep. Dreamt old friends were moving back to North Texas. So overjoyed I was sorry to wake up.

Like most Americans, I am horrified by ongoing news about the corona virus. Not just the spread, not even the rising death numbers, though unlike our squatting president I don’t consider that a victory. I am worried—okay terrified—by the fact that the virus apparently keeps changing. Doctors are finding new symptoms, new organs that It attacks, new ways that it destroys the body. And now, it’s hitting kids—after we though they were safe.

This morning, Jordan reported that Jacob had an upset stomach. The rational part of me knew that he does that from time to time—his digestion seems to be a weak point. We all have them—anxiety has long been mine. But the irrational part of me immediately leapt to the fact that gastrointestinal problems are one symptom. Not a part of the early classic pattern of symptoms, but now recognized. Of course, later in the morning, Jordan reported that he was fine and considering what he ate this weekend when his cousin was here, it’s no wonder his stomach was upset.

I vacillate between hope and despair. With the ever-changing nature of the virus, the ease of contagion, and the lack of cooperation by a large segment of our population, plus the denial of our leader, I sometimes think it will kill us all. But then the hopeful part of me reminds that scientists all over the world are working to decipher the nature of this monster disease and to find treatments and vaccines. Surely, they’ll solve it soon, though it’s fairly awful that the US is not cooperating with other countries and has ordered a halt to research in this country. Research, like testing, must make us look bad, and above all, we must open up the economy..

How about you? Are you full of hope, despair, or somewhere in between?

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